I used to think that honesty was vital to have a good relationship, but now I believe that dishonesty is sometimes better.

I started believing this after I realized that some things don't need to be said and sometimes it's a lot easier when things aren't said because a lie can change the outcome of anything whether it's in your favor or not.

The main reason why I started believing this is when I was in fourth grade and I Told my mom I stayed up late watching TV which wasn't even a big deal, but me and her had been talking a lot about honesty. I thought maybe if I do this I can show myself and my mom that I can be really honest. When I told her she got really mad and said it doesn't matter if I'm honest now, it matters if I was honest before when I was watching TV and I should have been honest and just not have watched it in the first place.

I was trying to explain to her how I was really trying to be honest because I was wanting to try harder but it turns out that didn't really work for me. I noticed that if I hadn't said anything that the day would just blow over like any other day but I decided to be honest and it did not work in my favor. This whole situation made me feel kind of guilty and really sad because I wanted to be one of those totally honest people but I rather not be one of them because I found out it's really hard.

This whole situation showed me that it isn't really about honesty, it's about being okay with telling a lie and avoiding a little bit of conflict. This matters to me because in my household there is a lot of conflict and I'm trying to show that I'm okay with telling a lie just to avoid something very simple.